Even when its not easy

If all it took to be success was setting goals then we would all have what we want. We all want things and we all make plans to achieve them. But even with the best of intentions , sometimes life happens.

When reality doesn't meet expectations its certainly becomes easier to let go than to persevere. It becomes easier to believe that you are not worth as you believed, even believe that the universe is playing tricks against you. It gets a lot harder to feel positive.

As much as those are undesirable they are truly instrumental to growth. It is a waste not to learn from them. It is from disappointments that we discover what we truly want and focus on it, it is from these moments that we decide how much effort we are willing to put into it.

See its easier to set goals on New Years' because of the holiday high. Its easier to believe when life is going great. Its on paper than in reality. Its easier said than done. It sounds easier for other people than for ourselves. Its easier for obvious reasons.

Truth is life is noisy and messy, shit happens for no particular reason. A lot of things are out of our control. The best we can do is do our best. When it gets difficult make that cup of tea, whine on social media, cry if you want to, whatever it is that will get you through .In the end be grateful you are alive and take your lessons to the next plan.

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Happy New Year!!

Hope you enjoyed the festive season. I sort of did, I was in a remote village in Kilimanjaro, Tanzania where I couldn’t get mobile network and subsequently internet connection… the perfect getawayJ.

I haven’t been blogging for a while so I take this opportunity to update you. I’m now a final year student (Yaay!). Too many feelings about it, happy that’s it’s finally going to be over, scared because I’m not sure of what I want to do next. I have been thinking about this for a while now but it’s never been more real now, I mean a career in academia sounds very appealing to me, I have lots of experience in it and not to mention the travelling involved in research, then there is industry I definitely know corporate environment is not for me but a start-up environment is also an option I’m considering. To add to that corundum I have been reading Richard Branson’s books lately and I have to admit that I’m seriously considering entrepreneurship.  One of my new year’s resolutions is to figure that out.

Speaking of resolutions, my take out from 2015 is simply be Bold. If something itches you, just do it. Throw yourself in with no reservations. It may or may not work out but doing it is an accomplishment in itself. I throw myself into a lot of things last year. Participated and applied to programs that I honestly I thought I had no chance in. I failed in some, wallowed in disappointment for a while and life went on anyway. I also won some won an award for APL, won the star Google Student Ambassador award, won some school awards, went to the Womeng Conference, was listed in the top ten in Happiness Apps Contests, went to Grace Hopper again, got elected as President of the Women In Computer Science Society, fundraised a substantial amount for the society ,got 5 internship offers and more. At a more personal level I learnt to unclutter my mind, and consistently woke up at 5:30 am to go running, started amateur photography here among other things. Well, am not bragging (neither do I like to) but I surprised myself and so can you. Just do it, whether or not it will pay off is not entirely in your control, play your part and surprise yourself.

Remember when I said I wanted three things this time last year? Well, I got them, all three of them. I wanted a peace of mind, to travel and of course academic success. I got more than I bargained for which is why my list this year will be extended to five. 2015 wasn’t my best of years but it was a good one. Let’s make magic in 2016.